The tough head over to the caring cart. Let me explain. I am a nurse in a NICU, and to show us nurses how much our management appreciates us they created this cart that is rolled into the unit at specific times for our enjoyment. This happens on both day and night shifts. This cart is full of candy, chips, flavored coffees, teas, cookies, whatever is brought in for us. I CANNOT STOP!!! Well, let me rephrase, I COULD NOT STOP!!! I would literally graze on mounds of chocolate and Doritos for hours. Do you hear me??! HOURS!!! OK, so my point is this; I managed to evade the beckoning call of the caring cart last night, and as they rolled it out of the unit my heart did a little happy dance. This was a magical moment for me because although this little hurdle is small beans in the big scheme, it was huge for me at this moment in my Eat to Live journey. My will to continue and persevere was stronger than my want to tear into that junk. Do you know how HAPPY that makes me???! There is a smidge of self control somewhere in there after all! For your viewing pleasure, I am including a snapshot of the infamous caring cart.
Moving right along. Since this journey began one of my major issues was how I could possibly make all this healthy food taste good. That has definitely been a problem with some of my concoctions so far. BUT, tonight I did come up with something that I really enjoyed eating! My mom gave me a recipe for a dressing made from tahini (ground up sesame seed), lemon juice, some spice and a bit of water, which I made. I cooked up a pan of black beans, green bell pepper, tomato, and a bit of fresh salsa with brown rice. I also steamed up some fresh green beans and poured this dressing all over both dishes and shabaam! Loved it! As day 5 comes to a close, I feel so proud of myself for finally making a change. It has not been easy, and I have to pray everyday for strength and the want to continue. If any of you reading are considering this lifestyle but just not sure you have the fight in you to make it work, let me suggest you read Made to Crave by Lisa TerKeurst. It was really here in this book that I found the inspiration to seek out what was right for me.